Vanishing Velez

I really don’t have a ton to talk about with this one. I had my 2nd psych evaluation today, and it was really not anything to write home about.

I met with the therapist, and she went over the questions that she had asked me to fill out last time. These were questions about what I do when I feel certain emotions. She was particularly interested about the fact that I struggle to recognize the ‘happy’ emotion.

She was also interested in my relationship post weight loss. This surgery is stressful on relationships, so she was concerned about that. I’m not particularly concerned about that though. I did express that I want Albert to have an opportunity to talk to Dr. Shetty and ask him whatever questions he has, since Albert is nervous about this too, and I don’t have all the answers to his questions.

Outside of that, she kind of talked at me about stuff. She talked about binge eating, and asked if I woke up in the middle of the night to eat. She got kind of annoyed that I said maybe 1x a month I wake up and think that I need a snack. She was like, ‘you don’t NEED a snack, you want one’. And in my head I’m like, yeah, but I also know that if I don’t eat something, I won’t be able to go back to sleep, so I might as well have a banana or something.

Then she started talking at me about anorexia, and how we want to make sure we don’t start having anorexic tendencies after surgery. She asked how I was going to maintain my weight loss, and I was like, that depends on the person? And she was like, you don’t know…ask Dr. Shetty. And I’m like, Duh…but I also haven’t had the surgery yet. I might not have trouble maintaining the weight loss.

But that did make me wonder if people who have this surgery statistically have anorexic tendencies post surgery. I’ll have to do more research on it. Supposedly people get to this point where they have lost all this weight, and they get this fear of gaining it back so they start to skip meals, etc. I think that if I were to ever have this issue, it would be more around body dysmorphia-where I feel like I’m bigger than I am. But again, who knows until I get there.

Then, she asked if I had any questions for her and I said no. So she is going to send over my letter to Dr. Shetty-I asked if I could have a copy and she said no. So now, I just need the endoscopy and the 2 nutrition appointments and I’m good to go.

I will write another post soon about my research into anorexia and weight loss surgery.

Till then…